I really am! DDD8>
Okey *deep breath* I shall start from the beginning. Several days ago at night,I had just finished a character and I was really proud of the way he looked. But after that I suddently felt debressed,because no matter how good the desing is,I'm never going to draw that character after this. The thought really made me debressed... I know that I have made several very good character desings(I'm such a stubid narsist T.T),ones that actually look the way I imagined them to look,but theres no point in making characters that you dont even remember afterwards. After that I was few days as happy as I could be and got back to DA.
Here,I talked to a fellow deviant who told me that her characters,that she still love and care about,have been around 5 years. The thought got back to me. I felt and still feel pathetic because of it. I could never have that deeb pond with my characters,no matter how good they were. I told her about my problem to abandon my characters and she told me that she had done the same thing many times before this. Now I dont feel as alone with this problem,but I still feel a bit lonely.
And now to this day. I was wisiting

's site since I really love her drawings.
Her characters look and are unique,they almost seem to live their own life. Now the different version of the thought came up. "Why my characters arent as lively as

's characters?" The result of my thinking was:"Because I dont give them life and I abandom them right away."
Now I'm over the top debressed. I dont know what should I do with this problem.
Please help me (Stubid idiotic imbesile) out! D8>
(and p.s: I'm really really really sorry for what I did to you Buumna and if it helps you even a little,I really dont want to show my face to you right now. Not tomorrow at least.
Thats how shamed I am.)